just love me baby, love me for who i am

It's so strange when you haven't posted in 4 years and you come back and read what you wrote 4 years ago. It's especially strange for me given how much has changed in that window.

A suicide, a dissolve of a relationship with a very close friend, a diagnosis and cure for anxiety issues that have plagued you fora decade, a life threatening illness, the loss of two of the most important musical influences in my life and then, finally, after all of it, a clear vision of who I am and where I want to go from here.  That's a summary of the last 4 years in about 3 lines.

What I've learned from all of this is: In this fucked up world, the most important thing right now and always, is love.  Love the people who matter.  Love the ones who don't.  Love the weird people and the people who are like you and the ones who are completely different from you.  Most importantly, love yourself.  It's the only way to truly be free and life is too short for hate.

I haven't released a song in a very long time.  That's intentional. Will I do it soon? Maybe.

It really depends on the weather.

II

Life lesson...

The darker it gets, the brighter the light shines when things finally turn around.

The universe keeps itself balanced.  We don't control that.

As far as the perpetual lack of music, that is about to change.  Get ready for Part II.

XO

Phobias I: Goats Hate Synths

I've got to stop blogging so earl in the morning but...

Kung Fu Classes For Women is my name for my electronic band.  I finished the first album this week and plan on putting out 2-4 more this year.  For the first record, I really only made two rules: 1) No guitars and 2) No vocals.  Also, you will notice that these songs are very synth heavy.  As it turns out, I like these tracks more and more each time I hear them.  I'm pretty happy with the end result and I love the art I made for the cover, even if it is totally ghetto...

Here's the big version because you need to see it in all its glory. Notice the pixelated synthesizer an pixelated 808.  Also, digital goat is hella-pissed.  So yeah, I hope you like the tunes.  More news and things coming soon.

  

i'm not daredevil

Matt Murdock is not Daredevil.

I've been on a long hiatus for several reasons.  No more.  More details to come in the next few days about Phobias, Part I and a few other projects.  I've released 9 new tracks in the last 3 days.  Check them out or just check out this one:

i might be strong but i'm not immune

It's 6:04 AM and I've been up all night.  Two years ago I wrote an album called Self-Destructor.  For the most part, I wrote and recorded all of it that May with a few tracks that came a little later down the road.  After I wrote it and sequenced it in demo form, I couldn't listen to it or play any of the songs on it because it basically ripped me apart whenever I listened to any of them.  Well, it's been two years and I listened to it last week and instead of feeling unbearable, it felt like I was hearing something I'd forgotten about and that I've missed.  


So, last night I started rerecording "Balloon" and "Tear Here" and I'll be revisiting the rest of the songs I wrote for that album in the coming weeks.  One difference from the norm:  I won't release any of them until the entire album is done because I need them to come out as a group.  It just makes sense that way.


For now here's the old version of "Blue Ocean Waves" which will be getting a revamp soon.