i'm probably just trying to cleanse myself of these overwhelming fears and regrets

The Reason by m3d1um

#050 - The Reason - 2005

Back in '05 I was working on approximately three albums: Welcome 2 the Nightmare, Emotional Masochism & The Reason. "The Reason" the album was supposed to be more bluesy/psychedelic. Kind of my "Around the World in a Day" in a sense. I had toyed with this song idea for a few years and one day while I was sitting in my bedroom staring out my window at the snow, I wrote that first line and the rest of the song just kind of came together. There's a really shitty version of this recorded and in the hands of some people who I gave it to at the time because I was stoked on it. The Reason project kind of lost steam when I started working on The Gun Show in 2006 but as of late, it's potentially due for a comeback and so I recorded this in the style I had originally intended. We'll see how it all plays out over the course of the 100 demos. Oh also, please note, this is the half-way point to my goal and it hit in May. We are on a good course. Hope you like it.

take me out tonight

Smiths EP by m3d1um

#045 - #049 Smiths EP

So two weeks ago I was chillin' on Soundcloud making some conversation and listening to Smiths covers and I was prompted to record my own. It was supposed to only be one but instead I spent the weekend recording a full EP. Parts of it are sloppy and there are a few things I'd tweak but overall I'm satisfied with them especially Unloveable and Disco Dancer and probably Shoplifters too.

Just for the record, prior to doing this I'd wanted to cover the Smiths for a really long time and I've actually recorded There is a Light That Never Goes Out acoustic but this was the full deal.

More later! Almost caught up!

you love me so much it makes you sick

The Fuck of It by m3d1um

#044 - The Fuck of It - 2009

So this actually was written because one day I told one of my friends that I'd "Go home and write a song just for the fuck of it and call it the fuck of it." It actually turned out to be one of my current favs because the lyrics, while meaningless to many, are actually quite meaningful and very significant to me. Pretty much every line in this song means something very specific which is kind of cool. The mix of this is not my fav and I actually want to overdub some feedback but it's a demo so you know...

I hope you like it!

you're never locking down my heart you're never gonna cuff my hands

Handcuffs by m3d1um

#043 - Handcuffs - 2006

At one point this was one of my favorites but it has since fallen from grace to some degree. Maybe because it was about a specific relationship that in retrospect is not really something I regret. This recording of it is okay. It's still in contention for The Gun Show but in that lower tier (ie track 8 or 9).

Hope you dig it.

so baby please just buy me one last drink

Happy by m3d1um

#042 - Happy - 2010

I wrote this on the fly one night (a few weeks ago?). I had the hook stuck in my head for a while in like February but I wrote this pretty fast and it actually just kind of came out of me. The entire third verse is a nod to another musician. Other thing about this is that it kind of sits on the border between actually being a happy song and not because while I was still very much dealing with some stuff when I wrote this, I was also watching people get into my music and so I feel like the song is somewhat showing both sides of the spectrum but I don't know. Hope you dig it :).