i need her to cut me deeper so i can start to feel again

Emotional Masochism by m3d1um

#070 - Emotional Masochism - 2004

So in 2003-2004 I conceptualized this album of songs about the fact that, at the time, I had a tendency to throw myself into volatile relationships with the complete intention of getting hurt in order to push myself into a certain emotional state/mindset in order to drive my creativity. Is that a healthy way to approach life? um no. Did I do it anyway? yes because I had some tendencies in my 20s to be slightly irresponsible in regards to my own well being. So, long story short I came up with the name for the album long before I wrote the title track but the hook is actually one that I liked enough to finish the full song. More on the whole album a little later. There is a 99% chance it's going to come out first next year and thus, I will be talking about it a lot in the coming months. I hope you dig this. To me, it kind of feels New Adventures in Hi-fi at times which I didn't intend but works for me.

i use you like i used them all

So I've been sick/busy with work/traveling and so my song output has been limited. More coming soon. For now please ponder the words to this song and see if you can understand the brilliance of this man (because many don't get it and even the ones who do miss most of it).

Dedicated to only a few...

oh fuck we're up all night again

Blue Rainbows by m3d1um

#069 - Blue Rainbows aka Oh Fuck...We've Got Cats! - 2010

I like this song so much I named it twice. This was written for one of my friends because she a) randomly said "Oh Fuck...We've Got Cats" one night and b) because she helped me through some really painful stuff earlier in the year when I needed it and my way of thanking people generally involves creating something for them. It's really just how I function and I see it as no big deal. Anyway, because of how this song actually turned out (it started off as a joke), I'm actually pretty pleased with it. Also, it was heavily influenced by Rick Springfield. I hope you like it because it's kind of got this whole metal-ish epic punk rock thing going. Oh and I actually worked on this overnight the night I recorded it which is kind of funny considering the hook.

every single morning I wake and pray for peace

The Garden by m3d1um

#068 - The Garden - 2005

I wrote this in 2005. It's part of "The Reason" album. This is a new recording and I like the dark slant on it. That project is still ongoing and might be done at some point because I've kind of found a new liking for those tunes. We'll see how it progresses. I remember a lot about writing this because it kind of started out as similar song about painkillers and then it morphed into this whole spiritual thing. The first verse structure is different from the others because (I think) I started it at one point and finished it later. It works though. I hope you enjoy it.

fucked up by the chaos in the city streets below

Grenade by m3d1um

#067 - Grenade - 2005

This song is pretty much a combination of 2 things: 1) a tune I wrote in 2008 that used to be known as "Holocaust" when The Blistering Hearts rocked it out. 2) Lyrics/Hook that I wrote in 2005. I usually give songs the date that I first conceptualized them. Anyway, I like the guitars on this sort of but when I rerecord it there's going to be an overhaul because I actually feel like here are lots of things about this one that I don't really like that much. On that happy note, I hope you DO actually like it! Going to keep blogging this afternoon until I get caught up.